Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Love

I hate having to see my friends hurt.
I hate knowing that there's nothing I can do about that hurt.
I hate it when people I love do not understand the love and grace of Jesus.

But...

I love the fact that my friends know when I'm upset, and know exactly how to comfort me.
I love that I can just come up to them, and they know just what I need.
I love that I don't need to explain myself, they are just there.

I am so thankful for so many things this Thanksgiving.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Can't wait...

...to spend thanksgiving with them! ^^^ 4-5 days of relaxing, laughing, NOT worrying or even talking about school or classes, good conversations, coffee (for the addicts) and lots of pictures and i'm sure inside jokes :) Can we just leave tomorrow???

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Have You Ever...?

Have you ever felt like you were undeserving of the things or people that God has blessed you with?

Have you ever wished that there were things you could change about yourself?

Have you ever felt that sometimes the lessons God wants us to learn are just really hard?

And have you ever felt like your walk with God was kind of 'blah' and then in your most weak and vulnerable moment, a friend comes along side and holds your hand and gives you the biggest hug ever, and it's like God specifically sent this hug and this person to remind you that He is there and He cares?

I've felt all of these things quite recently. And going back to the last "Have you ever," there are two particular people who have been there for me in this way at different times... it is so wonderful to have friends like them, who allow me to be me, who tell me I'm a beautiful person because they know that most of the time I don't think that, but also because they actually believe it. friends who encourage me and who allow me to be vulnerable and let my guard down.

There are so many things God has done for me. And I feel so undeserving.

Friday, November 14, 2008

I Never Realized...

...how theraputic writing poems can be - ha, i'm not so good at writing them, but they definitely help in trying to put what you are feeling into words and what's going on in your life...I should write them more often.

Wonderful Night

So tonight...

was wonderful.

and needed.

I got to spend an entire day with my best friend... (jill we missed you!!) and we got to go see the So You Think You Can Dance Tour in Atlanta! We left at about 3pm and didn't get back til 1:30am or so... we're exhausted and we have classes tomorrow - but it was so worth it!

It couldn't have come at a better time... I could write more but my eyes are closing so I shall leave it at that... :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Little Reminders

I love it when God sends you little reminders that He is there and He is faithful and He knows EXACTLY what we are thinking and feeling - always. Tonight I heard a ringtone from my phone that I hadn't heard in quite a while - and it was from one of my best friends from home, Katie. I was just sitting, overthinking, worried about school and the like, basically just mega stressed out. And I see this text message from her out of the blue that just said, "Just wanted to tell you how much I love you! And that I'm missing you right now." I just love how much God takes care of us and sends us little reminders to let us know that we are loved and that we are cared for SO much by our Savior, that He orchestrates these little blessings in our lives to show us just how much He cares.

Sometimes I feel like I've messed up so much and I am so slow to learn from Him when He's trying to teach me things because I want to hold onto things and not fully surrender... that I am so undeserving of these little reminders from Him. I mess up all the time and have so much to learn and so much in my life that is sinful...

And yet each time I feel low or sad, or frustrated or stressed, God finds a way to somehow remind me yet again, that He loves me; that He is all I will ever need; that with Him I can be fully satisfied ...and my heart is once again overjoyed.

Excitement and Stress

Stress: 5 papers to do before thanksgiving break

Excitement: Just got an A- on a paper that was for a VERY difficult professor :)

AND I'm going to see So You Think You Can Dance on tour tomorrow with one of my dearest friends! :)

Life is stressful, but it's the little blessings God sends your way that make life pretty great.