A dear friend and I have been reading a chapter a day of this particular book by Max Lucado and it's called, "He Chose The Nails." Each chapter, it talks about a different part of that horrible day, one chapter talks about God's promise to us in the nails, in the crown of thorns, in the cross, etc. It's a book that I read before in highschool, however, I love re-reading books, especially a book like this, and seeing how much more it means to you, how much you have grown in your understanding of who God is and what He's done for you. And I love that with Jesus, we're never done growing. There's always more to read, to learn, to pray, to strive for.
I just found out I'm going to be able to be a long term (6-8 wks) 2nd grade sub at a school nearby. I'm soo incredibly grateful for this. But before, I was antsy, nervous and questioning if God really knew what he was doing with my life... not literally, I mean I know that He is good and has a plan... but I was completely questioning a) when was he going to provide for me like he said he will? and b) why am I here this summer and not at home? It's amazing and yet sad, how my trust in Him goes wayyy up when things start to go "my way." My trust in Him needs to be absolute, regardless of whether my timeline is being fulfilled. God is GOD. He is powerful, loving, sovereign and as little and insignificant as I am, somehow and for some reason, He wants to know me. So much so, that He had His Son die for me. Why don't I trust Him better? I am sure that it's a part of the fact that we are sinful; we are flawed and broken and we find it hard to trust in Someone who we can't physically see, especially when we are impatient and wanting things done at a certain time.
But praise Jesus, that even though I mess up a thousand times a day, He still loves me. His grace for me (and you!) is neverending; it's limitless. No matter how many times we fall down, He is right there to pick us back up again. No one in this world loves us like He does. No one else in this world can comfort us, bring us joy and peace, like He does. So let's trust Him. Let's remember that even when things are hazy and we can't really see what's going on, that He is our guide. Give him the "driver's seat" so to speak and trust that He knows where He's going with your life. Because when you do, when you completely surrender and tell Him that you trust in His unfailing love, it's amazing how much at peace you are. Because you know your life is in the hands of the One who created your life in the first place.
And isn't that the best place it could be?
